Well, here I am on my airmattress wasting time on the internet before my mom arrives to pick me and all my possessions "back home". I have to laugh to myself because for so many years I have put my career ahead of almost everything in my life and now I am victim? of what many would consider a pyramid scheme and have zipped through a significant (in my world) port of retirement, the entire Roth IRA and the rollover from a job I hated so much. I'm sure that entire staff would love to know that happened to me. My roommate has no idea, he thinks I'm loaded because I just bought a new car (it's actually a used sports car) because I had 2 good weeks at work... and now it's sitting in the apartment community lot with an expired registration and suspended driver's license to boot.
How long will I have to live there before I find another job? I have been applying for jobs all over the state of Florida and beyond. Honestly, whoever calls me first thats willing to pay an actual salary or rate of pay that I can make car payments and pay a phone bill and insurance and a little something for rent can expect a yes. The hospitality industry really has me perturbed, I'm 26 with a degree, do I really need to compete with a highschooler for one of your serving positions or explain to you why I'm "changing careers". With all due respect, it's a bad economy and I have bills to pay. These corporate yoyo's waited a month to call me and then made me come in for 3 separate interviews then never called again. One gym made me fill out some activity sheet that looked like it came out of a third grade Bible school activity workbook. Lady? Is it really necessary that I practically color you a picture to make minimum wage folding towels? One person's membership probably would have paid a week's wages there. The answer is that is not necessary, it's actually very degrading.
I'm sure by now you're getting my picture- a series of events doesn't happen to someone like this for no reason, I really am regressing backwards in life and of course, I'm overweight too. This must be punishment for a wrong doing. Don't get me started on those traffic citations.
Well, I guess I had better make the decision not to be any more depressed about this and to "enjoy the ride". Although I can not even legally drive myself to a 7-11 so let's just see if I get pulled over today when I have to move 3 hours northbound in a car with an expired tag. yay! I pray I don't get pulled over and believe me I hate praying for anything. Is this over yet, can I roll over and die? Hopefully this judge gets my handwritten letters. Oh yeah and I finally caved in and ordered EBT but since all my mail is being forwarded I am not sure when they will arrive, they were supposed to only take a couple of days, and now it's a week later, I'll be damned if I'm calling the hotline.
I bet you anything I will start getting calls tomorrow for a job and I'll be all the way in Timbucktoo with no gas money, 3 more traffic citations and an interview for a part time outbound customer service representative position in another state making $9.50 an hour. :( Damn you on indeed.com at 4:30AM!
Why me God why me?
You know what don't answer that. I don't care to know.
My poor mother, having to pick me up off the floor and I know we will fight. I will try my hardest to prevent. She drives me crazy but I'm sure anyone reading this knows what that is like. I hate hurting her feelings but I'm clearly not her favorite child. The pain, it's so deep. :) Yes and No, what it really is is that my mother is a follower. Whatever my sister and her husband do my mom has to jump on the bandwagon. My dad is sort of stuck up their butt as well so no one really cares what I am doing. They are both college graduates, my sister's a doctor and they just had their first baby! OMG! LET'S ALL MAKE LITTLE SISTER FEEL WORSE! (sigh)
Well this blog is a little boring but whatever. If you want to feel better about frivolous crap that turns into a great big deal in someone else's life than this is probably a good read. Or the great big deal crap that happens in someone frivolous's life and causes them to have to move in with their parents or withdrawal from 401k- yeah I am not letting this happen to me. I worked very hard for that and I've done my part McCain. Who else would dive into their retirement to avoid this crap?
The first thing I'm going to do when I make it to their home is unpack all this stuff and take a walk, I can feel fat growing on my chin and I haven't even eaten anything yet. Then I'm going to pet my dog that they've been taking care of for me and keep indeeding, gmailing and facebooking it, not necessarily in that order or maybe all 3 at once. (I guess I can add multitasking to my checklist.)
Oh yeah and just for the record, the guy in charge of this company I am not working for is the cause for a lot of my anger. He hates me too. Wahhh- yeah I don't care. I did but now I don't. I just won't talk to him anymore. Print, type, fax that's all he will get. If he's lucky.
